The Life I Chose to live

    Yesterday we packed up with a ton of friends and headed out to the lake. What we at first intended to be a couple hours turned into 6 before we knew it. But we all had a blast. We swam, we ate, we had a mud fight, and the kids did sparklers once it started getting dark. It was great!     We have made plans to do it again before the move. And since someone already let the cat out of the bag, I get to share my excitement about that as well. 25 more days until I leave this hell hole behind me and start my life back home!

    I know I'm actually posting a day late, but yesterday turned out to be a lot of fun. A friend of mine had decided that he was going to pay our little town a visit, so we met up to have some fun in the sun.     We had a blast. Damian enjoyed himself too. And we even made a few new friends. We all ended up hanging out until late hours of the night because of unforseen circumstances, but that ended up being pretty humorous. The circumstances may not be the greatest, but I'm happy to say that I'll be able to spend some time with them today before taking on my own responsibility.  And get this... I won't have to leave these friends behind in Texas either. They've already made plans to visit me atleast twice a year. I'm super happy with life right now.

    I swear with each passing day my anxiety and anticipation double. I can't believe that this is finally happening. I don't want to expose my move date because some people just don't need that type of information. But I will say this... It's coming and it's coming quickly. We have already started making preparations with Daddy's work and here at home. It's going so smoothly that it's almost unreal. I still have some packing to do here at home, but most of it can't be done until the week of the move.  But everything on Daddy's end is already set in motion. We are waiting on one last email verifying that he passed his background screening has been completed. It's likely that will be in tomorrow.     After that it's basically smooth sailing. I have one more major obstacle to overcome... getting a better car for the move. After that I literally just have to save money until the day of the move. Seems easy enough. Then I just have to focus ...

    For years I have conformed to the way of others. I've changed everything about myself and changed them again. For what? To attempt to find the things in life that make me happiest... to make others happy along my journey... to find myself. But have you ever came to a point in life that you sit reflecting and find that the things that make you happiest are actually the things you began with? I've reached that point in life. I am at a point of reflection. I've noticed that I am far from what I really am. I've changed and camouflaged myself so much that I've lost all sight of who I really am.     Everyone that sees me now sees me as this prissy little petite thing that only finds joy in the finer things in life. But that's not true. At the end of the day I am just a country girl that cleans up nice. I find myself day dreaming about all the outdoor activities that I once enjoyed so much. I am far from some city girl that can't stand lake water, mud, or ...

    Mother's day for my MIL and I actually started Saturday. We did a bit of shopping... Well honestly a lot of shopping. That's literally all we did for 2 days. For the most part it was fun. So I'll start with the good.    On the plus side while my MIL and i were out, we had a blast. We jammed to music, we talked, shopped, and just had a good time. We both got lots of new goodies. She talked me right into buying a traveler's notebook. I got quite a few new clothes. A new purse and matching wallet. I got some new makeup from Ulta beauty. And managed to even get the stuff to dye my hair back to my natural color with BRIGHT red highlights.       We really did have fun. But people, as usual, get on my nerves. All I heard was jealousy crap because mom and I were allotted money to go do as we pleased. I heard snide comments. And then to top it off when we got back to my inlaws, the house was dirty. To me that was a slap in her. After all she does to ...

    I don't understand people. I never will. How is it when someone calls another person out on something known to be truth they get mad? Like Wtf? Really? If you don't like whats being said about you then change it. House dirty as fuck??? Clean it. You smell like week old grease??? Shower regularly. Shitty mom/parent?? Get off your lazy ass and do something your child enjoys with them (more than once or twice a month). Hate that you have no friends?? Then maybe you should lose your shitty attitude. Don't run around blaming everyone else for your problems and damn sure don't run your mouth when you can't back it up.     Another thing I can't stand is people throw the same bullshit up like broken records. And then they turn around in the same breath and pull the same old bullshit. "Oh pity me. Such and such is so mean to me and I just don't understand why." My god that crap is over played. I've heard that record skipping for years. Then to use ...

    I took my time completing this one for many reasons. I have 3 new projects that I am waiting on, and I feel like I complete diamond paintings so quickly that it's becoming rather expensive. Only a month in and I've spent pretty close to $100. But they will make beautiful wall decor once I have them framed. My next 3 projects are all gifts. I have 2 different Beauty and the Beast roses that will be gifted to my daughters and 1 to a close friends daughter (she may as well be my daughter). And I have a custom Horde (From World of Warcraft) symbol that I will be doing for daddy. Once I get close to finished with those, I will be on the hunt for my next victims.

    If you want to say something to me so badly that you leave a comment, don't be a scared little bitch and delete it before I have the chance to read it and respond.

    Since having to put off the move, I thought I was going to continue on a downward spiral. You know, the way I normally do when things don't quite go my way. But I've pulled myself out of my slump and moved on to bigger and better things. It's amazing how much a little self care can help.     Over the weekend I took care of some things for myself. A new hair cut, dying my hair, getting a few  new cosmetics, getting my nails redone, and of course new clothes. It's going into summer so I invested in a few dresses. Nothing too flashy, but the styles definitely suit my body type. I am absolutely in love with them. I also got a couple of new sugar skull shirts, and daddy tried to convince me to buy a pair of matching sugar skull shorts but they just weren't my style.    The remainder of the weekend, of course, was dedicated to family time and the kids. Needless to say there was quite a bit of money spent on bubble guns and bubbles. The kids absolutely ...

    This post is actually a little late, but I was tired last night and wanted nothing more than to curl up with my hubby and catch some zzz's.     Yesterday I made it into a me day. Not a "I need quiet time" day, but a "I need pampered" day. So thats exactly what I did. Daddy took little man for the majority of the day while I focused on me. I definitely got caught up on my maintenance, and I feel so much better for it.      I started the day out with a cut and dye. Yes ladies, I cut my hair again.. But not much. I swear. I only took off a little over an inch and had it thinned. I'm actually working towards growing my hair back out. It currently sits about my bra line, but I'm looking forward to it being at my waist line again.   Then I was off to do some shopping for myself and the kids. Each of the kids got 2 new outfits and momma picked up 2 new dresses and a couple pair of heels. And might I dare say... I look amazing in both dresses. I al...

   Hey guys! Yeah I know its been a while since I have posted a proper post, but I've been enjoying life. Yes, sometimes get the best of me and are harder than I would like them to be... But doesn't that fit everyones situation?     Over all life has been pretty damn good. I've been spending lots of time with family and friends. Damian is sprouting like a weed and showing everyone just how smart he is becoming. He rarely ever speaks without using full sentences now. There are still some things he hasn't gotten the grasp of yet, but we are working on it. I will say he is one of the most polite children I have ever met. He says please and thank you, bless you when you sneeze, and will pat you on the back if you cough.      He's become very curious lately and shows he is eager to learn. He attempts to help with dishes, pick up the house, and has excelled in wiping down counters. I feel like my OCD has rubbed off on the poor child. He definitely makes m...