The Life I Chose to live

    So a couple of weeks ago I ended up at the doctors office because the pain in my back had become unbearable. I had to get MRIs and X-rays. When the doctor called me with my results she said that I had some degeneration and that I had some narrowing in my lower spine. Scary right? She said she wanted to get me in to see a physical therapist and a chiropractor.      Well today I seen my Chiropractor. He took a second look at my MRIs and X-rays. Well it's not as bad as the doctor had made it out to be. It's still not good because I am only 28 but it can be managed. In fact the chiropractor seems to think that in a years time we can either have the pain at a very minimal.      Turns out that most of what is causing my pain is years of neglecting a few pinched nerves and my back needs to be aligned. Even with this being my first visit I can feel somewhat of a difference. I'm not hurting as badly as when I went in today. He managed to get my back to pop in several different p

    In case you don't understand from the title, court went amazingly. After explaining to the judge what has happened over just the past 3 years of Delaney's life the judge said "I've heard enough." She seemed angry that a child had endured so much in such a short amount of time. So she terminated Delaney's mothers rights.    Delaney's father did appear in court requesting a paternity test. But he was denied. They had the paperwork on file of him signing the acknowledgement of paternity and questioned him as to why did he have doubt now (12 years later). His response was that he was high and drunk when he signed it. The judge all but laughed in his face. He was told to hire an attorney if it was that important to him and assigned him to pay $150 a month and $55 medical support plus cash medical support. He is allowed visitation pending my approval and supervision.    I was granted full custody and primary conservator-ship of Delaney. We were granted a res

    Yes, I know. I have a lot of "Big" days. But today is the biggest of them all... so far. Today in just about an hour I go to court. (No, I'm not in any legal trouble.) Today is the day that a judge gets to make his final call on Delaney. After speaking with nearly half a dozen people last week to get a feel for what may happen most everyone seems to believe that the judge will in fact give me full custody. But worst case scenario he will grant me permanent guardianship until her 18th birthday. Either way she will be placed with me.      The part that makes this so exciting is that it will be finalized. She won't have to wonder every day for the rest of her childhood where home is. That is one of the many reasons I took her in to begin with. No child should ever wonder where they will lay their head to sleep from one day to the next. She had endured that enough already in her 12 years on this earth. The least I could do was give her a place to call home, where peop

    Finally things are slowing down and starting to fall into place. I have spent the last month trying to get things set in place, figure out how to run my business more smoothly, run my household and work without one interfering with the other, plus take care of myself. Now I feel like I've finally got it all worked out, and I have to admit... It feels good.       Over the last 5 years I had myself convinced that I couldn't make it on my own. Well it was more like Joey had me convinced that I couldn't make it without him. But I'm proud of myself. I'm actually doing it. And I'm doing it well. I'm running my own business. I'm taking better care of myself than I have in a very long time. And my household isn't suffering from it. For once I am proud of myself.    Now I mentioned that I'm taking better care of myself. Well I mean that in more than just one way. I'm finally seeing a psychologist and a therapist to get myself on the right track in