The Life I Chose to live

     Well to answer that question, A lot. There has been a lot to change in the past couple of weeks. Brandi and I have been contemplating moving to a new town. We love the town we currently live in, but we aren't sure that we are really happy here. It's near impossible to settle into a new relationship with your ex's so close. And her ex most definitely likes to push buttons where she can. That alone has given us reason to believe that we might be better off in a different town. But that's not all that has changed.     Joey and I are in a rough patch with our friendship. The more I try to be there for him, the further he seems to be pushing me away. Last night was the first time in two weeks that we sat down and had an actual conversation. He is in a new relationship (that I don't condone). I fear that this one is going to get him in a mess of trouble. She isn't quite old enough to understand the situation he has and to be honest, I don't think that he car

     There is nothing in this world that irritates me more than being punished for someone else's actions. And that's exactly what has been been happening over the last couple of days. Some piece of ass pissed Joey off, so pretty much everyone has had to worry because he went MIA. One of these days people will learn to respect his personal space and realize he will only change if he thinks you are worthy of that change.     But that is really not my concern. At least not until it affects me or Damian. But thankfully I was able to get through to him (as usual) and he will be here sometime today. Hopefully he is in a better mood once he gets here. I wasn't able to pull the full story from him over the last few days. All I really got was something about a money hungry bitch, deleting his pictures, irreplaceable pictures gone, and being fed up. Oh and something about getting a new job so he can just be otr and then spend his time home here. It really made no sense. But hopeful

    For a couple of weeks, I was beginning to wonder if things would ever get back to normal. Joey wasn't able to continue visitation on a normal routine. Plus there were things going on at home with the other kids that made me question what was going to be the new normal. And although things aren't completely back to normal, I am starting to see a glimpse of normality.     Joey's hours are slowly starting to pick back up to normal. That in it's own is setting so many things back to normal. With his hours being more like normal, finances and visitation are getting back to normal. Joey and I have been talking quite a bit about how we plan to handle finances now that we are starting to see normalcy again. It's actually been a very calm and productive conversation. (Although of course we have been able to have friendly conversations again.)      I was actually glad to hear that he has missed our household. He has even missed Brandi and her kids. That was a bit of a s

    I kind of feel bad for my ex. He has been trying to get himself back into the dating pool, but epically failing. I know this has a lot to do with how close him and I still are. Of course we have the normal disputes, but we have an unbreakable bond. No matter how good or bad things are going we will always share those stories with one another.     For instance, last night he had one of his "flings" over. Of course I didn't know, so I called him to talk. It was mostly about our son, coming events, and what I was going to need from him. Well I guess that was too much for her. She let her jealousy get the best of her and attempted to start a fight between Joey and I by opening her mouth. Well that backfired. Instead it started a fight between them.      I wish I could say that it was only a short lived argument. However instead it led to the ugly truth. He says that he told her everything. Well let's face it.. the truth is hard for anyone to handle. How can you star