The Life I Chose to live

    I know it's been a while since I did an update, so I will start with this past weekend. Damian's dad came to stay the weekend with us as we agreed when we split. He has every other weekend to take him down to the shit hole I call hell and the alternating weekends he comes and stays here with us. This is just to ensure that he gets an adequate amount of time with his son vs how most custody agreements go. It went surprisingly well. Damian really enjoyed the time with his dad and enjoyed staying up most of the night with us adults eating candy (since he was the only kid in the house).      Monday morning wasn't as fun. Actually Monday sucked all the way around. Brandi and I were up at 5 am to travel 2 hours away to take our oldest boy to the hospital for surgery. After waiting an hour in the waiting room, they finally got to go back to prep for surgery. Us thinking that it would only take 30 minutes to an hour, I kept her phone and she kept the car keys...

     Today my oldest step daughter came home and said the strangest of things to her mother and I.. "Girls aren't supposed to like girls". After talking to her I came to the root of the problem.. children have been picking on her for having two moms. So much for society progressing huh? People of the LGBT community are supposedly seen as equals now, yet we still have people teaching their children that it is wrong.     I'll tell you what is wrong.. people and their judgement is wrong. Even if the bible does say that being gay is a sin, so is judgment. The bible it's self states "judge not and thou shalt not be judged". So tell me who the real sinners are? Is it the person that found love in a person of the same sex or the person judging another as if they are god?     People in this society sicken me. They judge people for being happy and loving someone... same sex or not. And to place that judgement in the minds of our youth is just ...

     Well, once again it is winter. And when I say it's Winter... it's single digits tonight. It's a big change from our Summer of triple digits. I'm definitely not used to it yet. I miss the warm weather or even it being high 60's low 70's. But I will say it is perfect for cuddling. Which I have been doing a lot of during this cold weather. Brandi and I both have been anticipating the warmer weather coming back. Neither of us are very big, so this cold weather literally chills us to the bone.      It's not really helping anything that I got a wild hair up my ass and decided to chop off all of my hair. Well actually I did it twice. I got it cut and the stylist told me to let her know within the week if I had decided that my hair was still too long. I contacted her the next day to get an appointment to chop it off shorter. We ended up with a total of 4 inches taken off and I love it. I would have never been allowed to go this short before. I have be...

         Maybe she does love me lol. This is my gorgeous new stuffie that she got me today. Meet sparkle.

   I can't even begin to explain how lucky I am to have found such an amazing woman. She really does bring out the best in me. But it's so much more than that. It's difficult to explain, but being with her makes me wonder if I've ever had a healthy relationship in the past.      Over the last 3 days, I was really sick. I'm talking flu symptoms... sick. Usually that means being sicker than a dog, still taking care of the house, still taking care of the kids, and still doing everything I can to keep my spouse happy. But she wouldn't have it. She let me sleep as much as I wanted.. which basically turned into sleeping 2 full days. She encouraged me to rest. She took care of the house and the kids. And when I would wake up, she would do everything in her power to make me comfortable. I could see the hurt in her eyes knowing that I was sick. It was a look that I don't ever recall seeing except from my mother when I was little. And the look of joy on her face ...

   My blog is my personal outlet. This is where I talk about things that go on in my life. This is not a place to read and then run back to my ex to try to start shit. Actually I don't give a fuck. If you want to read and then run back to him and tell him about how happy I am... fine. You're only hurting him. All he is going to do is go on a downward spiral because it's not him that I am making these memories with. It's not him I am up with till all hours of the night laughing and cutting up with. You are doing him more harm than good. But that's on you. I'm gonna keep on being happy.

            I know I haven't been around much lately. But I promise, I am still doing very well. We all are. Well, most of us involved. But I can speak for everyone in my household and say that this is the happiest any of us have been in a long while.     Brandi and I have spent every day with one another for the last three weeks. Now normally I would have grown tired of my s/o by then, no matter how new it was.. But we don't seem to tire of one another. There is always something to be said or fun to be had.     We truly enjoy one another's company. And our kids are very happy with the whole situation. Damian loves Brandi to death. He has even began fighting over her saying "my mommy" like he does me with the other kids. It's adorable to watch. And her kids make sure to share the love with me and have begun to refer to me as their other momma.      With the help of a few good friends, we are making ...