The Life I Chose to live

    For those of you that don't already know, yesterday Damian and I experienced a house fire. We (including myself, Damian, my boyfriend, and his dad and his family) lost everything. Now you would think that during such a tragic time you would be able to fall back on those that say they love you and that you are family. Now I realize that is not completely true.     Joey, of course.. As always, was right there to try to help. Offering a place to stay and help rebuying everything we need until my boyfriend, his family, and I figure out what to do about living situations and replacing essentials. Now his family was a different story. Now take into consideration that I wasnt asking them for help for myself. Joey did however ask for a little financial help to replace everything our son lost. Nope!     Instead of being able to lean on his family, Joey, my boyfriend's family, and I are all working frantically to attempt to replace everything that was lost. ...

    Thanks to Joey my birthday wasn't such a bust. He was nice enough to make up for the horrible day I had on my birthday. So.. Wondering what made it so great? Well for starters, it was great just hanging out with him and our son for 2 days. We talked, we laughed, we stopped until my heart was content, but most importantly we just hung out like the friends we used to be years ago.     I think by the time everything was said and done, we ended up spending well over $250 on just the shopping. We got a ton of new clothes for Damian and I. We got the stuff for me to touch up my hair. And he was nice enough to get me a few things so I can continue taking care of my nails.     Probably the best part of it all was dinner though. He treated me and little man to Chili's. It cost us nearly $100 but it was well worth it. We ate like fat kids, talked, and laughed. It truly was a great way to celebrate my birthday.     I truly am blessed...

    While I don't have anything planned for today... I am looking forward to spending Saturday with my best friend. Joey has already made plans to come up and have a late celebration with me and little man before he takes our baby boy for visitation.     If there is one blessing I can honestly say I am happy to have, its the fact that I have my best friend back. I am so lucky to have such a great friendship with my son's father. 

      Today is a special day to celebrate all of those wonderful dads out there. I'm glad to say one of those dad's belongs to my son. Although his father and I have had our differences, he still works hard to provide for his son and spend what time he has left building a relationship with him. Happy Father's Day Jr. I hope you and bubba have an amazing day together. Our son is lucky to have you.

    Even with my baby boy gone to visit his dad for the weekend, I'm still stuck in momma mode with this cutie attached at my hip. I'm not complaining in the least.... But why do all children seem to migrate towards me? I guess I'm just that loveable.

    Remember a while back when I said I was going to be making some major changes in myself? I said I was going back to the me that I used to be? Well I accomplished that goal. But just as I anticipated, I lost a few people along the way. That's normally how it goes huh? It's okay though. At least I can say that I am a happier person and that I am satisfied with my decisions.      Joey and I came to the conclusion that him and I are far too different to make a relationship last and both of us be happy. Neither of us hold any grudges and are doing an amazing job at co-parenting. We've agreed to stick to a personal agreement vs going through child support enforcement. And due to being able to agree so well on our child, we have built a pretty understanding friendship. So although we aren't together, Damian still sees that his parents can get along.     About a week after Joey and I split, I found myself in the beginning of a new relationship... With my...

    I know I've been going on and on about getting back to the person I want to be. It's been a fight left and right, but I'm not backing down. This time I have to make these changes to make myself happy. I've realized that living my life to make others happy, just isn't a life worth living. I rather fight for what I want than break and live miserably to make others happy.    Lately I haven't spent much time at all at home. Hell I haven't hardly even been in town. And honestly... even with the fighting to do what I want, I've been happier than I have been in a long time. I've enjoyed the freedom of hanging out with friends and even making new friends. I've enjoyed seeing the kids play and have fun. They have made new friends as well. It was a fight and a half to get those moments.. but if I had to do it again I most definitely would. While yes it was a headache and a half to be able to enjoy those simple moments in life, Nothing could replace th...