The Life I Chose to live

      How has it been two whole years already? It feels like not too long ago I was holding her for the first time, but here we are 2 years old and full of personality. Happy Birthday baby girl! 

  Meet Raymon and Levi. These are the two newest additions to our family. They came to live with us in late September. This started out as a temporary living environment for them while their grandmother worked on getting them a house. But due to unforseen circumstances it became more of a permanent living situation. A month ago they asked if I would take things a step further and take full custody of them. Obviously, I said yes. We spoke with an attorney a couple of weeks ago and got two birds taken care of with one stone. We are now working with the attorney for me to take full custody of these two and to get my divorce! Wish us luck. This year is going to be our year!

   I don't even know where I left off in life if we are being honest. But I feel like we are living an entirely different life. Everything has changed for everyone. So get ready to read a short novel.    So I do believe everyone knows Brandi went back to work through a temp agency. Well she's worked her ass off and has managed to make her way up the ladder. She was switched to nightshift and trained in a different department. She's doing well there and it's a fairly good place to work. She seems happy with it and has decided that she is going to stay there.     Her decision to stay at this job pushed us to make another big decision in life. We moved out of Wichita falls. I have to say that alone was one of the best decisions we could have ever made for our family. But it came with some hard to swallow truths. It made us realize that maybe we aren't as close to some of our friends as we had thought. But we all hit realizations like that as adults. That momen...

    Well I have been given good news left and right today... All leading up to a happy ending. Daddy was approved for release. So he is coming home. I just have to send over a few documents and wait on a background check, then we go to pick him up. Yay! Great news for me and the family. Not so great news to all the people that have been disrespectful and tried their snide shit while Daddy was away. I can't wait to get the time and date to go get him!

 I know I have quite a few people that visit my blog. This is the first and hopefully the last time I will ever have to ask anything of you guys.  https://gofund.me/bbb8cf62  This is a link to my go fund me. If you can... Please donate. If you can't... Please share it on every platform. It would mean the world to me and our family. We all just want him home.

    I can't be the only one in this world that deals with the constant power struggle with their spouse. And before we get started I will openly admit that this post is very much related to my last about "men's expectations of women".     I keep going into this power struggle with J. He drives an 18 wheeler for a living and I understand the strain that can put on a person. The long hours and time spent away from home is a pain in the ass. The traffic is also irritating at times. But that doesn't mean his job is any harder than mine. And it damn sure doesn't make him my superior. No matter how many times we have this same conversation he sees me being a stay at home mom as less than his job. Even when I was working he didn't see me as an equal.      His job (if he would work regularly) is a set schedule. He knows every day what time he is going in and a roundabout time that he will be getting off. He knows pretty well what headache he is walking into. H...

    After a rough two weeks, I had another session with my therapist. Today was simple and painless. We simply worked on my "safe calm place". It turns out this is a good coping skill for frustration and irritation too.      Today we pin pointed behaviors that cause frustration and irritability. Go figure.. most of my frustration is caused by the male population. Mostly their expectations of females. By expectations I mean looks, availability, house keeping, cooking, tidying, taking care of the children, exc.     When was there a guide to womanhood that stated that it was a woman's JOB to take care of everything both inside and out of the home everyday? Where does it say that woman should obey without opinions of their own? Where the hell does it give men the right of judgement over a woman's body and upkeep?      I'm sorry but if I want to take a day, week, or month to do what I want.... I damn well will. I'm not going to cook and clean...