The Life I Chose to live

 I know I have quite a few people that visit my blog. This is the first and hopefully the last time I will ever have to ask anything of you guys.  https://gofund.me/bbb8cf62  This is a link to my go fund me. If you can... Please donate. If you can't... Please share it on every platform. It would mean the world to me and our family. We all just want him home.

    I can't be the only one in this world that deals with the constant power struggle with their spouse. And before we get started I will openly admit that this post is very much related to my last about "men's expectations of women".     I keep going into this power struggle with J. He drives an 18 wheeler for a living and I understand the strain that can put on a person. The long hours and time spent away from home is a pain in the ass. The traffic is also irritating at times. But that doesn't mean his job is any harder than mine. And it damn sure doesn't make him my superior. No matter how many times we have this same conversation he sees me being a stay at home mom as less than his job. Even when I was working he didn't see me as an equal.      His job (if he would work regularly) is a set schedule. He knows every day what time he is going in and a roundabout time that he will be getting off. He knows pretty well what headache he is walking into. H...

    After a rough two weeks, I had another session with my therapist. Today was simple and painless. We simply worked on my "safe calm place". It turns out this is a good coping skill for frustration and irritation too.      Today we pin pointed behaviors that cause frustration and irritability. Go figure.. most of my frustration is caused by the male population. Mostly their expectations of females. By expectations I mean looks, availability, house keeping, cooking, tidying, taking care of the children, exc.     When was there a guide to womanhood that stated that it was a woman's JOB to take care of everything both inside and out of the home everyday? Where does it say that woman should obey without opinions of their own? Where the hell does it give men the right of judgement over a woman's body and upkeep?      I'm sorry but if I want to take a day, week, or month to do what I want.... I damn well will. I'm not going to cook and clean...